Re-writing the Source Code of our Beingness - Trust the Up-date!

We are running our Inner Cosmos like a system…. based on programs…. the work we do… or I prefer to say …. the joy we do… to change our beingness… is based on changing our thoughts and feelings…. uncoupling them from our programs in our archive… called subconsciousness… trying not to run our life on autopilot anymore… striving for an awareness…. that is not based on our old self´s beliefs…. but on the feelings of our future self in the eternal now…. so we are re-writing the source codes of our beingness… and out of nothing… due to all the new connections in our brainware… due to all this new connections in our brain…. to our heart… and from our heart to our brain… to all cells… down to every single atom in our inner cosmos…. out of that…. out of a sudden…. we feel unwell…. like losing our orientation.... our walk of our somebodyness gets wiggly like a neuroline should be…. instead of being happy about this happening… we are feeling worried about it…. thinking about illness…. sometimes full of fear…. because there is something happening… we do not know what it is all about... system error …. looking for symptoms relating to the known…. thinking if it could it be that disease or another one….

last year I had an unknown experience like that….something totally unusual happened…..out of nowhere….I wanted to walk the dog with my beloved Elif Amrita…and suddenly I lost totally my orientation…..feeling dizzy and the 3D reality was in a kind of calypso around me….I could not walk anymore and Elif Amrita got me back home with some efforts …. laying down on bed everything around me moved in such a way …if I had been drunken or stoned….I vomited and felt incredibly dizzy…..is it a stroke or a heart attack or what the hell is going on I asked myself…and of course the whole family felt totally worried….. calling an emergency doctor who found nothing.... my body… my entire energy signaled me to lie down… not to move any further… hence the dizziness ... to keep still… in order to have all my inner powers just for this apparent fight..... I knew I had to trust my inner power ..... and I slept a lot ... the next morning…. I was still very dizzy and weak… I was still barely able to go out alone ..... Elif Amrita accompanied me to a check-up of my heart and blood .... EKG everything was fine .... the doctor mentioned… it could only be a neurological cause .... because of the worry and fears of the family…. I went for a MRI examination and had my head scanned .... lying in a booming magnetic field .... I went into a one-hour meditation that was unbelievable .... meditating in a magnetic field is not that bad at all … with the result... everything was of course fine in my head ..... and so it became more and more clear what I knew and suspected from the beginning ..... getting a huge update .... like the operating system of a computer …. your system needs some rest.... it needs to recalibrate... like the computer takes a while after the operating system gets an upgrade.... old programs no longer work as usual… crash or are extremely slow....that's what we are aiming for…. doing the joy on a daily basis .... want to achieve to kill old beliefs and related programs....therefore just be aware… that sometimes your system needs time to adapt to all that new wiring and firing in your brain.... in times like this…. just say YES…. HERE IT IS…. give your self a rest ….give your system the time to adjust to the upgrade..... and after that …..experience a different Beingness based on an update of your life…. change and the world will change… trust the update!